Shortly after my trip to Cambodia and Malaysia.......
I was robbed.
It happened while I was still in Korea, probably somewhere around the end of May.
Granted, I
was living in the shadier, foreigner-infested part of Seoul (and yes, apparently that
does matter) but I never thought that it would ever happen to me. I guess part of me is still an isolated, naive girl from a super-small-town. I felt too safe there. I felt so safe that I made it unsafe. I guess I should have been more aware of the fact that I was living in a city of 13 million as opposed to a town of 2000.
It happened while I was sleeping. My bedroom door was left unlocked and I had the fan on thanks to smoldering Korean humidity and heat.
I went out to get ready for school the next morning and noticed that the patio door was open. I vividly recall thinking: "Hmm, that's odd. I never leave that open," and then going on about my business.
Later Craig came, and his wallet had been there the night before. I was in the bathroom putting on makeup when he says: "Why did you take everything out of my wallet?"
After a few seconds I replied: "I didn't touch your wallet...."
It took a few minutes before I got a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. I immediately went out into the living room and asked Craig to check my wallet. When I went to the porch where the door was left open, I looked out and noticed that the window, screen and all, was also wide open. I knew for
sure that we would never leave the window open like that. So that's when it hit me.
Craig showed me my purse and how it had so clearly been rummaged through.
We just stood there, holding each other, in shock.
Never in my life have I ever felt so afraid, violated, shocked, angry, sad, or lucky.
It was horrifying. Absolutely horrifying.
So Craig called our truly empathetic ex-boss (you'll catch the sarcasm in a minute) who told us that we'd better come into work anyways.
The entire day, trust me, I was in no state to teach. Craig held it together better than me, but it was clear that neither of us should have been at school that day.
It could have been so much worse. The person got $200 and my ipod. But what if he/she had wanted something else? My door was not locked, it would have been ridiculously easy to get to me. What if I hadn't turned the fan on before I went to bed? I most likely would have heard noises outside and might have gone out to see what was going on. I don't even want to think what might have happened if I did that.
The next day Craig and I got the cops to come to my apartment. As I expected, like most Korean cops, they were useless and did little more than take my name.
I also had my Nintendo DS and separate R4 card stolen while I was in Thailand over Christmas. After several clear-cut incidents, we're positive that my landlord was corrupt. I don't know why she would want a pink Nintendo DS, other than to sell it, or for a grandchild perhaps? Either way, before we left Korea to return to Canada we had a lot of issues with her claiming that the TV we bought was hers, things going missing left and right and her falsely claiming other things as well.
Needless to say, our last few months in Korea were severely tainted. Even in general, I am now much more distrusting of people and I hate that. At the same time I feel like I need that. Immediately after the robbery, every person I saw seemed like a robber to me. It was extremely difficult for me to even walk down the street without getting angry at innocent strangers who were walking by. Everyone seemed guilty. Even while that was happening I was aware it was stupid and illogical, but I guess I felt like it was better to be stupid and illogical than unaware and in danger.
It has been the worst feeling in the world.
Every night spent in Korea after the incident, was spent in fear. And I genuinely mean that. Unless you've ever been in the situation, you won't understand. I know I wouldn't have understood pre-May if I had read something similar to this written by someone else. It's just gut-wrenching, sweat-inducing, heart-palpitating pure fear.
Even now that I'm back in Canada I feel it. I don't trust a lot of people. I feel like they're out to get me. This whole thing has made me paranoid.
And when things like this happen, I fail to understand the human race. Where we went wrong. How someone could possibly think it's okay to devastate another person so entirely. How someone can completely violate a person's safe place, their haven, and just go ahead and take the things that they have worked so hard to earn.
And it's not even about the money. Living without that two-hundred dollars didn't pose much of a problem, and I bought a new iPod. But having to be afraid to go home each night, that stabs your quality of life to death.
So, all of this played a huge part in my eagerness to get back to Canada. I had an excellent, fantastic, wonderful experience in Korea. But I'm not going to lie. It's somewhat tainted. Living in fear is not living, I felt like a prisoner.
It's still hard for me to talk about. This is actually the first time I've acknowledged it to this extent.
I just wish I could have a chat with whoever did this. I'd truly like to know why. I understand that people want money, but what would motivate someone to the point that they would go and take someone else's? How does that decision-making process go down?
I don't have a repertoire of readers at all yet, but if anyone ever does read this and has an idea, please - enlighten me.