Directionally-Impaired

Hello! I'm the newest grad student you know!

Last week I found out that I've been accepted into the Masters programme I applied to. I'm going to be completing my M.Ed in counselling/psychology. So now I know where I'm going to be this time next year.

Oddly enough, this new found direction my life has recently acquired is making me feel smothered. Perhaps I'm mistaking the causation factors; perhaps the "smothering" I refer to has more to do with my crappy sinuses at the tail end of a minor cold. But it still feels strange to know what I'm doing and where I'm going.

At the risk of sounding overly frivilous, I have drawn comfort from the spontaneity and up-in-the-airness that has been my life for the past two years.

It's possible that I'm too naive or over-confident in this area, but I have always felt assured that things would work out somehow. I have always trusted myself.

And now all of a sudden I'm searching for apartments in a city I've already lived in, to go to a school I've already graduated from and to be reacqauinted with people I've already met. Not that this is a terrible thing; I think maybe I just lack an appreciation for the familiar. Just like how so many others I know lack an appreciation for the unknown. It's simply two different ways of life.

Though it could (and probably will be) another post all in itself, there are many things I'll miss about teaching next year. For example, kids who make me stop whatever I'm doing to tell me something so completely and utterly unrelated to any thought I've ever had in my entire life that it makes me seriously wonder if they've just warped from a different planet.
And the way they say it is what I'll miss even more. As if it's the most normal thing in the world to stop busy, rushing people dead in their tracks and tell them that you own a purple rock.

Yes, working with kids is priceless. It's a treasure and they are the little gems. They're no purple rocks, though.

I am excited that I've been accepted for three reasons, and three reasons only. 1.) It's one step closer to a career I can see myself doing for awhile 2.) I get to move back to my beautiful home province that I've missed, and 3.) I get to be close to my beautiful family, whom I've missed.

Other than that I feel like I'm playing it safe because I'm not out conquering the world. You may say I'm a dreamer....

Did I ever mention I have no internal compass? I'll walk into a room and when I walk out have no idea which way to go. I'm not joking.
So, I guess you could say that I'm directionally-impaired. In more ways than one.