Lately I've been thinking a great deal about just how amazingly complex we are as humans. More complex than we give ourselves credit for, in fact.
This stint of introspection first began probably around a couple of weeks ago after a series of situations caused me to acknowledge a few things about myself that I was not previously aware of. This acknowledgment was accompanied by a stark realization that though we as people tend to glide through life skating on the surface of the ice, there is a whole ocean underneath us and it impacts what we do on the surface more than we even know.
Sometimes things happen to us that have the ability to change our cognitions and behaviours, and oftentimes we will not even recognize the change or what has caused it. Sometimes things affect us to our core.
And it's hard to be able to swim in that ocean when it's protected by a layer of ice. For some people, the ice, the exterior, seems like a much nicer place to be.
I am perplexed by the ability of humans to
not forget. I purposely stray away from the word "remember" because I think it's quite different than what I mean. At the risk of sounding Freudian, most of what I'm talking about happens in the subconscious.
And not only do we have this uncanny ability to "
not forget," but the things filling up our oceans tend to become a part of who we are. The things that happen to us throughout our lives, the
people that happen to us, are pieces of the puzzle. Much of who I am now is a culmination of events, situations, and people I've encountered up to this point. Sometimes these things will manifest themselves and interconnect in such a way that they
alter who we are. I have always known this to some extent, but I think the reach of it is much deeper than I originally thought.
For me, in the past week or so, I guess I've been peering into my ocean. I wouldn't say I've gone swimming in it just yet, but I've definitely gotten my feet wet.